So I went in for a fill last week. I hadn’t had one since last June and I think I was pretty overdue. I actually started gaining weight right around the time I went back to work. I did well over the summer, but as soon as I had somewhere else to be for those other ten hours a day, I found it hard to fit the exercise into my schedule. And, I was TIRED. I didn’t make any serious weight gains, though, until about Christmas time. We got a brand new, gorgeous stainless gas range, and I was baking and cooking like a woman possessed. I made (and ATE) a lot of things I shouldn’t have. And I just didn’t have the energy to fight myself on it. And there was complacency. I’d lost over a hundred pounds and I felt good. I wanted to stop paying SO much attention to what I was eating all the time. I wanted to just do (EAT) what I wanted to eat and damn the consequences. Well, after a couple of months I got back on the scale and was alarmed at how much damage I had actually done. I was dismayed and really disappointed in myself. I didn’t even want to go in for a fill because I was embarrassed to see the doctor. Up until this point, I’d done really well, and I had always lost good weight each time I went in to see her. But, knowing that I wasn’t doing well, I did make an appointment to see her. I’m glad I did. There was no scolding, just gentle advice on some food items to swap out of my diet. One suggestion was to take out ALL bread, rice, and pasta and substitute beans. I hardly ever eat beans, because I’m not crazy about them. But the bread, rice and pasta has been sneaking its way back into my diet over the last few months, as my band was getting looser. I was able to eat it again, and it tastes so effing good!!!! I am a carb addict, there’s no doubt about that. I will take a bagel over a piece of chicken any day. So, I got a .3 fill and so far I haven’t noticed a difference, but I’ve been trying to get myself back to eating the bandster way. Taking smaller bites, chewing more, not drinking with meals, etc. I do have an appointment to go back in six weeks and I know my weight will be down, but I still think I’ll need another fill at that time. I want to start another downward trend and feel good about where I am when summer comes. So, for those of you who are banded and have been afraid to go see the doctor because of weight gain, do NOT put it off. Even if your doctor does scold you (I was lucky that mine didn’t…I think she knows that that’s not effective), you need to suck it up and go get your fill! I am anxious to start down on the scale again. I’ve also been bothered by pain in my foot. I did have a cortisone shot in the heel last week, and I think it has helped somewhat, but the podiatrist told me no weight-bearing exercise for minimum three weeks. Three weeks!!! There was a time in my life when I would have been thrilled to have a doctor tell me not to do weight-bearing exercise, but now it discourages me. I can still do swimming, and if I go to the gym, I can do the stationary bike. But I’m kind of an all-or-nothing kind of person. I feel like, “well, i can’t do the elliptical, so I may as well not go.” That’s bad thinking and I have to stop it. Just because I can’t treadmill or do the elliptical, doesn’t mean that I can’t exercise. There are other things I can be doing, including the weight lifting, especially with upper body.
I’ve lost track of my thoughts here, and I’m going all stream of consciousness! Main idea of this post is: if you’re postponing a fill, don’t. Go get it.